For a while I’ve attempted to blog. It has been a long time, and every time I attempted to write I didn’t know where to begin. Last year was quite a year for me. There are many parts of it I thought I would like to forget but not anymore. For it was those ‘bad’ times that make the ‘good’ shine even more. There were periods of sadness and loss which resulted in me taking a break from my yoga practice for about 7 months. Oh, I thought about it many times, but I just couldn’t show up on my mat alone. I felt it would be too scary, too hard and way too damn emotional.
I learned many, many things over the past year. One important thing was that although there was a lot of ‘bad’ to go through, there was so much ‘good’ waiting to happen. Faith, family and friends were my reminders that it was just a matter of time before the ‘good’ started showing up again. I truly believe we all have to go through some ‘bad’ but when we do, it really does make us aware of what is important and it makes us strong, stronger than we ever thought we could be.
At one point I considered giving up on my yoga practice, my yoga teaching and my yoga teacher training. My teacher training was in its 10th year and I thought maybe that was where it was supposed to end. I was only teaching a couple of classes that I thought I could easily let go of but seriously that would have been way too easy and anyone that knows me knows that I am often up for a challenge. (I mean really, who would open up a yoga studio on Evansville’s west side before anyone really knew what yoga was and expect to make it. But I did. For 5 ½ years and I made a profit…oh wait, I have digressed. That’s another blog waiting to happen.) It took time, prayer and that magic number of 7 months (check out the number 7 from a biblical standpoint. It’s pretty awesome.) for me to realize that yoga is such a big part of who I am that I wasn’t willing to give it up just yet.
So I moved into a new house, almost exactly 7 months after some of the sad events happened, where the address just happened to be 7117. I know, right! At the same time I had a great teacher training group that formed almost overnight with, you guessed it, 7 great yogis in it! It almost gives you chills doesn’t it? I took all of these things to be the signs of me being on the right path. (And I should throw in the fact that my birthday is on the 17th)
It’s now been a little over 7 months since I moved into my new place. I met a great guy who makes me smile and laugh a lot. I am teaching several corporate classes that are paying me really well. I have some awesome weekly private yoga students, with new private students all the time. I have a 200 hour yoga teacher training starting at Yoga 101 in July and another planned in September at the Evansville Yoga Center. I am hosting a retreat at the New Harmony Inn in November and my 300 hour yoga teacher training program has been approved by Yoga Alliance and I’ll be taking applications soon for that.
I really could go on and on about all the ‘good’ and the divine timing of it all, but I better stop while I’m ahead and have your attention. Let me end by saying, if you’re going through tough times or sadness, just know that it really will end, and your life will be filled by ‘good’ again. You just don’t get to pick the timing of it. We have to leave that up to God.
I would like to finally give a shout out to my girls and Jeremy, my family and my friends who make me smile every time I think about how lucky I am!